A Fresh Start

Have you ever wanted to start over? Have you ever wanted to go far away? Leave it all behind you? That's what I did, at least for the summer. It was just me, Mag, but with a new job, a new home, and a new town. I knew no one. I lived alone. There was a college there, but it was on the other side of town, at a safer distance.

When I first got off the plane I felt free, liberated, alive. I was in a strange place, but there was some predictability, some sanity. The paranoia was gone. Erased. My every move was no longer being watched, and it was peaceful.

I have now removed my former blog, which had gotten out of control. Sorry fans. It became overrun with rampant eroticism and what was essentially graphic pornography. Most importantly, it seems like everyone back home had learned of it. The strange looks were starting to become as common as the 'body language.' Signals were everywhere, and not all sexy. For those of you who wonder if it was all true, yes, it was. For those of you who are disappointed about not being included, consider yourselves lucky. Some of those pictures were reblogged all across the internet for friends, parents, acquaintances, and grandparents. (Well, any grandparent so horny and depraved).

I never meant to hurt anyone, and I have learned my lesson in exile. Yet, I feel compelled to continue to blog for some reason, to confess and narrate my life as it happens. Call it an obsession. Call it whatever you want. If it does not get written, especially when it is lurid or fringe or shameful, I simply feel as if something deeply important is missing. It must be written...

So, for this blog, privacy is essential. This blog will include no faces or names or identifying anything except perhaps myself, and maybe not even that. Yes, I will include the dark, savage facts. I will describe the shameful, depraved condition of my existence with as much accuracy as before. It will just be, well, safe. Well safer.

Alright, enough of that. I have returned home and reunited with S, M, and A. I recorded our evening together for posterity. Will share soon.